*sigh*

i'm being shallow again

but I do mean it.

Hugs mean a lot for me.

Yday, November 27, 2009, I made a big mistake by choosing to go to a blockmate's party over my bestfriend's party. Nothing to do with Martha. More of the people.

I don't want to elaborate anymore. I know that I would've enjoyed Wacky's more even if it's only the two of us there. We'd be doing some catching up.

Handle [Me] With Care. [I Am] Fragile

Thank you Quinto. Thank you Gianna. Thank you Apa. Thank you Wacky.

 And i feel like pulling the trigger...

So I'm back trying to be fit and in attempts to lose weight. This time it'll be for good. I'm taking it really seriously. Less sweat compared to summer's workout stuff but this time I cut on snacks so I think it'll be the same.

These are what I've been doing so far:

1. Eating Less. I am eating less snacks. No chocolates. Not much sweets. So yay!. :)

2. Replaced Regular Milk with Soy Milk. Soy Milk tastes good and is much helpful in weight loss, or so I've researched. I saw in forums that Almond milk tastes better and is more helpful in weight loss. For now, I'm cool with Soy Milk. :)

3. Replaced KoKo Krunch with Fruity/Nutty Cereals. I am done with my Blueberry Morning and now I'm eating Cornflakes with almonds. They taste really good, surprisingly. I can't eat them without milk though, it doesn't taste so much good. Haha! But I'm okay with it.

4. Jogging/Speed Walking. Every night I have been jogging/speed walking. Around 20 laps every time. I lose count. But the figure is around that. I spend more or less 30 minutes going around the tennis court. People say it's not as effective if I do it under the sun because I'll sweat less. Well, I would if at daylight it's not so crowded by kids playing and people staring at me. :)) 

5. Sit-Ups/Crunches. I don't really know which one I'm doing. =)) But I've been doing it every night as well. around 50 a night. 

6. Push-Ups. I don't know why I'm doing it, but I am. :)) 10-15 a night. I don't want to tire my arms because I...

7. Lift Dumbbells. They're pretty heavy. I can only do 10 each arm a night. I do this every other night. My friend told me that the muscles form when they're resting or something. That's why I only do it every other night :)

And yeah. those are the things I've been doing to get physically fit. :)

Right now, I dunno if I have lost weight. Effects won't kick in right away, anyway. I'm just being patient and I'll just be consistent with it. Consistency and passion are the keys for me to lose weight and possibly feel better about myself. LOLNESS.

So why do I want to lose weight?

1. I want to be more fit.
2. I'll be able to buy more clothes.
3. So some of the iBoys won't tease me beer belly anymore =))
4. To feel better about myself.
5. Whenever I look at the mirror, I see walrus--> me.

So yeah. :P

Before I go jogging later, I will finally fix my playlist in my iPod for my jogging/walking needs :) that's all for now! :) oohhh please pray I'll be successful :) thanks! >:D<

It's October 21, 2009 11:35 AM. The start of the 5th day of my first Sembreak in college.

It has been so boring. I just can't seem to plan anything with friends. Some friends aren't even in sembreak mode yet. (MIKEE SEVILLA, please be on sembreak na)

So far there are only one two cool things that have happened this sembreak: Comm.nYt crashing and Mico's birthday Party.

COMM.NYT.CRASHING

Met with Em-J, Ian, Kage and Quinto in Teriyaki Boy Katip. We ate dinner and did a bit of kamustahan. Wish we were complete, though. It was better than nothing, so not complaining :) Maybe next time we could plan something when we're complete. Wonder when that will be. LOL. Ian ordered something kiddy, it was so creepy =)) I ordered curry tonkatsu, wish the sauce wasn't so sabaw-like. It tasted good nonetheless. We left the place and rode Quinto's car. Nearly crashed 4 times. :| Don't want to elaborate anymore =)) =))

Arrived in the High School and it was fun seeing CSO people working and it was so nice getting to see them and hug some of them. LUIGI LEONARDO BAKIT WALA KA?! oh well. I left a super late birthday gift in his shelf in the CSO room. Most of the time I was in the courts but I stayed by the reg.table after some time. It was fun just chilling. Really talking and stuff. I left around 10:30 and I promised myself I'll go back for the last time in the PACnyt.

MICO's.BIRTHDAY.PARTY

Wish the place was more spacious and cooler, but I'm fine with the party. Reunited with the iBoys and iGirl. LOL. Wish we were complete, though, but that was fine. I arrived in One Burgundy and when I was on my way up, I saw Idonna, Arvin and Alex in the 7-11. I stayed with them for the early part of the evening. It was fun being with them. Talking about random stuff. Missing Robina a lot. Fooling Zack. LOL. Fun fun.

We went up to the party place and barely anyone was there. We just chilled for a while. Mae came and I think the party started to kick then. We started to drink. Then more iBoys came and I went with them. It was really great seeing them, specially those who're not in AdMU. I got so hooked to the shots thing. At one time I drank 5 consecutive shots... I would've drank more but there were people who were craving to drink, too. LOL. I had 20 for the whole night. I wanted to drink like 30-50 shots. I wanted to get super drunk so I would know the feeling of having a hangover. LOL.

I pushed Zack into the pool bytheway. ^.^ sorry about your phone. :))

Anyway, I left around 10:30 when I was sooo tipsy. Ask Idonna even, she was able to video me dancing wild(thankfully, it was dark :)) ) I went to McDo to supposedly get my brother but since he told me to tell the driver to fetch him later, I just got ice cream. I saw Martin de Joya who came from Enchanted Kingdom, apparently. coolness! BLOCKMATES, iWANT! D: bytheway, eating ice cream before and/or after drinking is something I always do, I don't know why, though. :))

NORMAL DAYS
The next day, Sunday, we heard mass at 6:30PM. What Vince Pleyto said is true. The afternoon masses have hot people indeed. Sorry God, but that's what I noticed more than anything else. We went to Shang for a quick while just to buy White Hat Yogurt. It is good, actually. :) Wish they dezato mochi balls, but blueberries/cherries/rice krispies are fine. :)

Monday to now. It's just all out boredom. Super. I want to go out with friends. I want to start with Halo-Halloween work. :( Mariel, if you see this. :( :( =)) 

Pretty much, that's my sembreak as of now. I believe things will get more fun and more exciting. I just need to open myself to possibilities and stuff. And I should keep in mind that mom not driving me shouldn't be a problem because ever since I taxi'd alone and Daluz reassured that I'll be safe, I never became scared to taxi anymore. :)

OCTOBER 26, 2009 PLEASE COME NOW. I WANT TO GET MY NEW PHONE NOW :( :(

UNLESS my profs decide to lower my grades, my QPI for the first sem in my whole college life is


ARGH.

It's really f-ing annoying that I'm so low. Sorry for those who got lower, but this is an ATL(all time low). My lowest ever in High School was 2.77. I swear I hate seeing 7's and 6's. It makes me feel like a complete f-ing failure in my life. 

Haaayyy. College, why must you be so academically boring?

Not everything I say is a joke.
Not everything I say is supposed to be funny.
Not everything I say is to humor you.

I also get hurt.
I also feel pain.
I also need help.

It's not as if I am born in this world to make people happy such a way that everything I do and everything I say is meant to make everyone laugh. What if one day I tell you I'm dying? You'll just laugh? Wow. What a good friend you are.

I... I just can't stand people who can't take me seriously. I don't think I need to send emoticons all the time. 
People should also do some adjusting. Everyone should adjust to others. Some need to do more than others. 

*sigh*

just to make shit clear

I'm not a robotic clown.

I'm a human who has emotions.
Not everything I say is laughable
Not everything I say is a joke.

Keep
That
In
Mind

I apologize for my inactivity here for a while. I have been relatively active in Twitter and my Blogspot so please, forgive me :(

Anyway, nothing much still has happened in my life since my last entry. I saw a cute Zara bag which I will hopefully be able to buy on Monday. SWEEEET! Right now it's super dark. I swear to God.



Parma, the typhoon supposedly to hit us, hasn't come to Manila. It's been striking the north places, if i'm not mistaken. I'm getting scared. The lady in CNN said that "it will cause serious damage". :(

*Sigh*

I hope we will all be safe. I'll try to pray the rosary later. I am not good with the Mysteries so yeah. (//_o)

Ohyeah, I DL'd Paramore's album "Brand New Eyes" and I fell in love. Blog to follow. For now. TTYL. 

PUTANGINA.

can I just exchange places with the people super suffering right now?

I JUST WANT TO DIE OKAY.

I'm on the edge of injecting someone with some illness then inject the shit to myself.

PUNYETA.

I hate this life.
I hate how people around me act toward me. 
I hate you.
I hate myself.
I hate every God damn thing!

PLEASE GOD TAKE ME NOW OR AT LEAST JUST MAKE MY SOUL DISAPPEAR. sawa na ako mabuhay.